occasionally.

after 6 days of zero nicotine and zero coffee (and lots of fruit and juice and vitamins hahaha) and being sleepy everyday in the office despite having slept 8 to 9 hours ay nagyosi ako kagabi at the team's night out. it was the expat's last night in Manila. (his mom went crazy when she learned about the glorietta bombing. he's staying at shangrila.) i still smoke, occasionally. seriously. gaaaaah. this is bad.

the other night we saw 11th hour at g4, another documentary on global warming. i think i like al gore's inconvenient truth better. it's got more substance. 11th hour on the other hand, is really kind of too sensationalized for me, a little too much opinion and drama. but even if it failed on building it's argument on a solid and factual basis, it discussed social responsibility emphasizing on global warming being just a symptom of a global society gone sick. it was a little too dramatic but i think it's got some points to consider - our constant goal to expand (without thinking of how we can do it in a sustainable way) which entails needing to use up more resources, the power of media and advertising to feed society's consumerism mindset which makes us think we need so much of these material things (trackback to my haviannas and nike blog entry) which are produced using up more resources (and oil). ram did not like this argument and thinks it's somehow a communist propaganda. i don't actually think that consumerism and capitalism are the only things to blame as root causes of global warming but somehow it's not hard to believe that they do contribute to the problem and not the solution. i think it applies more to US though as they definitely are the largest consumers in the world. still it doesn't hurt, even for us, to think twice if we really need something, or if there's a cheaper, or a more nature-friendly alternative. well i'm also guilty for adding to the problem (for smoking gaah) and trying to get down to a level that if i don't have the solution, at least i don't contribute to the problems of the world. so occasionally is not really better. which is a very depressing dilema. @_@

i also did the interview for this quarter's tech newsletter release (i know i know! i remember complaining so much about being obliged for extra work) which turned out to be a very insightful conversation, personally. talking to someone who's so together and so in control of her life (knows what she wants, goes for what she wants, manager in only 6 years in the company, has her own business at 27 and feels she has a balanced life) is like seeing the wreck that i am for living day by day just by impulse. i do love the well rounded person i turned out to be for having done so many unexpected detours (misadventures haha). but having that conversation was really kind of awakening, that hey you (me), you're not in college and you have got to learn to manage your own life efficiently. as ram would say, there are different strokes for different folks. and as much as i have always loved being reckless and impulsive, there's got to be some room for me to act more responsibly. yes? yes.

i won't bee seeing cybergate this week (yey! i hate cybergate although the blast in makati somehow creates relief for staying in mandaluyong) and will be at oracle (pacific building, i think) for a vendor training (hello another few months of bond with the company just after i served my 2 years bond which is not really a problem since i don't seem to be going anywhere soon, mabubulok na kaya ako sa kumpanyang ito? kung ganon mabubulok ako dito with flying colors! lalala).

one last thing - happy birthday to ram's mom today, since he won't greet his mom for me. am-bading daw. pag may nakukuhang yosi kay ram, sabihin nya sa mommy nya - ay hindi sakin yan! kay grace yan! dahil yun daw ang silbi ng tropa, fail safe, alangan naman daw ilaglag nya sarili nya. hahahaha! what an ass!!! well he is great that way, very amusing.